Yesterday I run, only run, 25 minutes! I think it sounds ridiculous but this is first time 6 weeks I did it so I am happy about it. Of course I felt it my calves whole evening but I hope so this is going better.
I have chatted with honey everyday but it has been very intermittent due to busy and bad internet and phone connect. I have thought couple times "Why I want to do this?", "Why I want to take all the pain of missing?", "Why I wait every day?". But when he send me a message or call me I understand right a way why I waited!
Why those two things I love also pain the most? Love and run. Guess what I did last night I wrote this text? Thought and read recent conversations legs up after running. Which one is worse physical or mental pain? I know I bully myself little bit but no can do, I love both things too much.
Is it love that you prefer take all pain to yourself? Just because it hurts more when another has a pain. I really thought it today because the pain of missing is horrible every day but it's nothing compared to knowing that something hurt another. I really prefer take all pain for myself than give it!
Love what you do, do what you love, I think it's all worth it!
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